Wednesday, July 13, 2005

Two Quotes for Your Consideration

After having battled alongside me last night into the wee hours of the morning with a number of my sinful responses, my husband wisely and lovingly directed me to read the following quotes this morning to help me guard against condemnation and self effort today. I'm going to type them up and post them on my kitchen cabinets so that I can reminded throughout the day of the truth in those moments when my heart seeks to condemn me. Perhaps, these quotes will make it to your cabinet doors as well:

The Lord hears us crying, "I am so weak, evil, stupid, and incapable that I cannot overcome this sin." We are lovingly corrected: "'Be strong in the Lord and His mighty power.' The One who has loved you gives you a nature that makes you capable. You must have faith in the power of His might. Your Adversary, who says that you cannot resist, lies and seeks your harm. Do not believe him."

"I am protected by the truth that though I feel weak, I am strong; though I may fall, I possess Christ's righteousness. And, though I am not perfect, I have peace with my God who has provided the faith I could not conjure (for faith, too, is a gift of God), the salvation I could not earn, and the Spirit I daily need."

Quotes taken from Holiness by Grace by Bryan Chapell, pp.143 & 148

Tuesday, July 12, 2005

Mended

On August 3, 2004, my life changed forever! My twin sons were born into the world at 4:08am and 4:10 am. Judah, the oldest by two minutes, was born with a chronic medical condition called Sturge Weber Syndrome. This very rare syndrome, not genetically linked and with no explanations as to why it occurs, comes with a long list of complications of which I won't get into here. It requires a multi-disciplinary approach, thus causing us to see a host of doctors, all of whom are trying to help us priortize what to tackle first re: Judah's condition.

I will say that for all that could potentially take place within someone with SWS, we have been relatively fortunate. God has been merciful to us for we enjoy a relatively normal life with Judah.

In addition to the many doctor's visits and various prescriptions needed for Judah, I have had numerous health concerns over the last year as well. Nursing the boys was a challenge, to say the least. And accompanied with it was a lot of pain that no one could really explain and no remedy ever cured other than finally giving up nursing when the boys were 6 months. In addition to my nursing woes, I have had numerous infections, the details of which I will spare you. I myself have seen several specialists who are still trying to figure out what's wrong with me and how to fix me. :)

Through all of this, the truths in a song by one of my favorite musical duos, Watermark, entitled Mended has been such a comfort to me. I want to write out the words for you here. May you be encouraged by the truth that our Creator knows us inside and out, every physical need we have and more importantly, every spiritual need we have! Thank you, Lord, that You have provided the remedy for our EVERY need through the cross of Jesus Christ, your one and only Son. (John 3:16)

You repair all that we have torn apart
And you unveil a new beginning in our hearts
And we stand grateful for all that has been left behind and all that goes before us

Chorus:
You've got all things suspended,

All things connected,
Nothing was forgotten,
'Cause Your love is perfect...
You are our Healer,
You know what's broken,
And we're not a mystery to You, to You

We will dance as You restore the wasted years
And You will sing over all our coming fears
And we'll stand grateful for all that has been left behind and all that goes before us...

Bridge:
Lord, you mend the breech,
You break every fetter,
You give us Your best,
For what we thought was better...
And You are to be praised
You are to be praised..
You've got all things suspended,

All things connected
Nothing was forgotten
'Cause Your love is perfect
You are our Healer
You know what's broken
And we're not a mystery to You, to You
Mender of the breech...

Mended by Watermark, The Purest Place album

Saturday, July 09, 2005

Noise Control

Here's a wacky thing I do in my home to make me feel like I have a little control over the amount of noise and chaos going on in my home, particularly my kitchen, at any given moment. It's a little odd, but it works for me. I turn on the radio in the midst of trying to get dinner together, my boys screaming, and my husband trying to talk to me at the end of his day. When we sit down for dinner ( or before if I can't make it that long) I turn off the radio. The boys are still screaming; my husband and I may still be trying to have a conversation, but there comes a sense of "ahhhhh, quiet" because I eliminated some noise if not all of the noise. Try it. You might like it!

Thursday, July 07, 2005

Lawrence's Birthday Surprise

We have lived in our townhome for nearly 3 years, and we have never used our deck. It's a really nice deck, too; rather large for a townhome deck. But, we have never been able to afford a grill and furniture for the deck. Occasionally, we've taken out the benches that belong to our dining room table and used them to prop up our feet while we sip on wine and watch the clouds roll by or the stars at night. But, for the most part this wonderful deck of ours has gone unused.

Although the deck has gone unused, it has not gone un-weathered. It was in desperate need of some care this year. So, my husband, who is well intentioned but not as well gifted in the area of home maintenance, sought to care for our deck recently. He managed to power wash the deck and stain it with the input of several friends, their tools and manual help from his dad. He actually did a very nice job!

He finished staining the deck right before he left for Florida for four days on business. Initially, we talked about and attempted to arrange for me to go with him to Florida without the boys. But to make a long story short, a competing desire to become debt free won out. I was most definitely tempted to struggle with our circumstances, but God provided grace in the form of an idea!

We had a friend who recently offered a used grill to us for FREE. AND, our neighbors gave us an old picnic table with benches and four chairs that were well used, weathered and unwanted. Despite our lack of funds to furnish our deck, God provided. It wasn't a nice Weber grill with a side burner or the tile top table from Home Depot that I wanted, but it was something to work with.

Lawrence's birthday is July 17th, and I always have a hard time with gifts for him. He always wants a CD or a book. Since there is always new music coming out and new books being published, he figures this gift will never get old. Music and reading are also two of my husband's favorite pastimes. While he may enjoy receiving a new book and/or CD for his birthday each year, I don't always enjoy giving it to him every year. That's just boring to me. So, every once in a while I try to think of something that will equally bless him but that I also will enjoy giving.

This year it came together for me. I decided to put the deck together while he was away in Florida. I knew he wanted Christmas lights strung around the deck like a friend of ours did. We had the grill from another friend and this old picnic table that I talked about painting. With the help and input of many friends (literally, it took about 12 people to pull off this surprise) I had Christmas lights hung around the deck, the grill cleaned up and brought to our house and the picnic table painted.

Wonderfully, a friend suggested doing the table "Terps" style. Up there with reading and music is Lawrence's alma mater, University of Maryland. He is a huge Terrapin fan! So, after all 12 of my servant friends gave input on this table, I finally decided to paint the table red with a big "M" on the top and little Terrapin mascots on the picnic benches. I did not paint the Terrapins myself lest you think I'm in the least bit gifted. A friend of mine outlined the "M" for me to paint (I can handle paint by number) and she also painted the Terrapins. Here are pictures of the table:
















It was a lot of work, a combined effort, and a huge blessing to my husband. What could have been four days of misery waiting for my husband to come home turned into an experience of God's mercy and blessing to me and my family through the willing and gifted hands of many friends. Thank you everyone who helped pull this off!